Sometimes I wonder what my life would have been like if I didn't have to struggle with anxiety and depression.
The past seven days haven't been good.
I received the endorsement information on Saturday night. I prepared two ads and a direct mail piece. On first review, I found out I had used the wrong spreadsheet for input. Which meant I had to lay them all out again. So much for working all day Sunday.
Monday, my birthday, was spent doing said re-layout.
Part of the first ad buy included an ad banner on their site. This is not my forte but I managed to create one that included some rudimentary animation and it should go into rotation at OCWeekly. I gave it a "NO on Prop 8" theme and used the latest messaging from the No on 8 campaign.
After all of that last minute nonsense, I had to create the post for the web site.
Then it was other last minute issues with another client. Arrgghhh.
Throw in this God damn election and the stock market (I've been relatively untouched) and I feel like I could use a good cry. I don't feel like I need to cry but it seems that might be the release I need to get all the crap out of me. I haven't cried in a very, very long time.
I've barely slept for a week. I've had a knot in my stomach for just as long that has prevented me from eating regularly. And the kicker? I haven't lost a fucking pound. Still at 170.
I'm hoping that I'm able to leave this behind me and enjoy the long weekend in NOLA. I have to push through the anxiety and get on the plane and then things will be fine.
Thanks for listening. I don't know if I'll be posting over the weekend and I didn't set-up any pre-posts so things might be quiet from my little world. Since it's so crappy, it's probably better that way.
Thursday, October 16, 2008
End Of Stress?
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6 comments:
I can relate, truly.
Enjoy your trip and relax- La Petite Grocery on Magazine - trust me on this.
Buck up! Things will calm down eventually. Maybe. That's what I keep telling myself anyway.
As for the weight, you are quite a bit taller than I am and you only outweigh my by 5, count 'em 5 pounds. The last time I saw you, you looked great.
My suspicion is the damned full moon this week. I'm experiencing anxiety attacks, little sleep (nightmares when I do) and low appetite.
When you get to the quiet time let yourself go; have a good cry. It can cleanse the soul and lighten the heart.
Thanks for sharing this with us all.
this field we are in is sure a stress maker. i'm sure you question yourself (as i do) why we are even doing it; it is NOT like rocket science or brain surgery...yet our clients make it out to be. sometimes if they would just LISTEN to us (the supposed "experts") instead of trying to come up with all the answers themselves, things would fare much better. because inevitably, what we are telling them to do comes from years of experience. why don't they get that?
have a great weekend. go cry if you need to. my therapy lately has been lots of time walking the dog. he loves it, and it relaxes me to watch his happy tail. win/win.
Let NOLA do ya. You look great. Be happy.
I know I often look back to the years before my depression & anxiety set in and wish I was there.
I had a HUGE cry last night. I think it helps now & then to bawl your eyes out. I sat in my living room after work and just bawled and bawled. I feel slightly better today.
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